remember when in my last note i said that friends, family and people who close to me is EVERYTHING in my life? im not kidding, because im a kinda type person. i CANT live a day having trouble with them. you can give me anything to fight me, but they are my weakest part.
so today maybe will be my break even point for all my struggle for her. since our last fight (actually we dont have fight we just stop talking for like forever!) i didnt talk to her since then.
i miss her so much, i have to say it out loud. but sadly only few who understand it and they cant do anything because they always say that this problem is better be done by two of us privately without any intervention.
yesterday, my other friend asked me why i deleted her blackberry pin. and she also told me that my friend herself realize it that she doesnt have my pin. gosh i was so shock hearing about that. so here's the truth, i accidentally lost her pin due to my 'smart' way to upgrade my messenger that lead to some shit error and made me lose some of my contact including her. so if y'all ask why i dont add her back, it's because i really have no other 'heart stock' to have another dissapointment IF she rejected me adding her as my messenger contact.
i've spent most time grieving, since she's really my bestest friend and sister for me.
but now i think i'll just stop all the melancholic thing and wish her for the best. maybe she hates me now whatever. but i think maybe all my effort really bother her.
now i just hope God will give me or at least make me forget all this problem just for a while so i can focus on my thesis.
but i do still love you sis, whatever happen. youre always be my bestest friend i've ever had.
thanks for all the great friendship you gave for almost 3years. i appreciate it so much..
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